F-R-I-E-N-D

i really not understand

why seem like you avoid me

you don wan to text me then let me know

don make me wait

waiting is not good at all

specially when i have problem

sometime i really need you

you don have to lie to me

i knew everything

you don wan to friend with me

i accept it

i wont disturb you anymore

you know my keep tear is flowing because of you

you know i need someone

but there noone there for me

my family not there

friend include you not there

you say you will repair our friendship

but seem like i just work it alone

i really wanna to quit

i really tired

i pray this wonted happen

but seem slowly it happen

with me you always have a lot excuses to go home early

but others you stay till the end

how do expect you i don think to much

seem that i totally been replaced

i thought we could be friend till the end

you keep on asking will i fall for you

i never even dare to think bout it

i don wan to affect our friendship

you know friendship is the most important thing to me

all i need just spend some time with me

just some

this few day really a big pressure to me

everyone seem isolated me

exam pressure

family pressure

now add another

friend pressure

the most breaking my heart is friend

why this keep happen to me

did i did something wrong?

can anyone out there tell me?

what i done wrong?

i don know will you see this post

but i really wanna tell you that

i really need you as my friend but please don isolated me

please don forget me

i really need you around me right now

i don have much time

just accompany me texting or talk with me

i wont affect your relationship with her

i just need a friend

is that wrong?

i just want a honest you

i didn't mean to complain anything to you

but i trust then i tell you

but why i feel that you don believe me

you believe others more

i don want to make anyone feel bad

is that hard to have a friend?

i never got anyone before

i just want a friend

a friend

why everyone got a best friend stand there for them

but me

only a have a short period friendship

i need medicine~

i need a medic

a special medic

that can heal

my lonely

my insane

my smile

my tear

my stupid

eww

too much to heal

everyone is change

i also wanna change

the only thing i still thinking

i should to change to good or bad

or even heartless

i need a medic

any doctor out there can give me?

please~~

i really need it~

* don't i have a bunches of medicine to take? what still i need?

out of control~

Eww

i totally out of the game

hmm

or maybe i should say i quit

i cant stand to argue with anyone anymore

further more

i have my psychology exam is on

why i take up that

i also dont know what am i doing for the timing

everything is confusing me this few day

i stop doing my daily stuff

what am i thinking

suddenly thinking wanna stop everything

all i want is a bed

and have a really really nice nap

stop having weird dream

is damnly tired

if i sleep

dream will pop up with weird stuff happen

is my brain gone crazy too?

if not i will not sleep

eww

suddenly i miss someone

and suddenly i hate that person

i feel like i totally out of control

IS REALLY TOTALLY CRAZY!!

nothing~

see

what i have done

i make myself totally nothing~

cry for two days

cant sleep for two days

make myself smile in front of everyone

what for?

she didnt even keep her promise

make my friends mad include best friends

is totally a idiot

i totally stupid

totally silly

now i have no friend

only me myself

what for~

STUPID

oh God~

what should i do??

i just totally stupid

i really have nothing now

include HIM!!