thinking~

this few day

i really think a lot

think bout him

think another him

think bout her

think bout study

think bout should i work to save money

think bout should i continue stay here

think bout friends

think bout family

hmm

there really bunches decision need to make

next year

should i consider hostel

as all my friend seem like not really sure bout stay at condominium

at 1st they told me this but cant give me a sure answer?

i really need it~

as i have to save my expenses for my own

i dont really want to expect to take a cents from my family

i want totally independent

i will work and half study

but i should save from now

although my saving is enough but still money from my parent

i dont want to touch it if can

just for urgent case

oh dear~

anyone out there have suggestion?

i have a buddy to talk

but i scare he busy

he seem like dont really want talk with me

so just act normal

maybe time will heal everything

sometime texting with him also a bit phobia

scare he did reply me with a annoying word

i cant afford to lose anyone

i need friend

sometime i really wanted to texting him

but i stop myself

i scare he will say me really annoying

sometime i moody he didnt text me as last time do even he knew it

he didnt ask me why even i just beside him

i miss his caring

maybe he will only texting with her as i just a friend only

sometime i really envy her

envy her has friend company her everyday

has a caring family

i didnt mention i dont have a caring family

yes i do have a caring family

but they just no time for me

they provide me everything

but just no time

i never blame them

i knew they are busy

i just can pray everything will go smoothly for them

i never ask for anything much

i just hope everyone (family and friends and specially my cute buddy)

just hope they everyday will happy

please stay healthy

buddy~ buddy~

where have you been?

i need you here~

You are wanted~!

WEI!!!

WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN??

I GOT SOMETHING TO SHARE~~

IT HAPPEN YESTERDAY!! (23 MAY 2011)

I WANNA YOU BE THE 1ST ONE KNOW BEFORE OTHERS~~

YOU SURE WONT BELIEVE~~

FASTER APPEAR!!!

YOU ARE WANTED!!!

21 may~!

21 MAY 2001

i will always remember it~
what you done to me

remember!!

WHO DO YOU THOUGHT YOU ARE?!

A KING? A PRINCE?!!

NEVER WISH IT?!!

EVERY TIME I THE ONE WHO COMPROMISE YOU

I HAVE ENOUGH!!

YOU THOUGHT YOU ARE SO CORRECT

YOU ARE HUMAN

SO DO I

YOU HAVE FEELING

SO DO I

PLEASE THINK WHAT YOU HAVE DONE BEFORE REPLY THOSE MESSAGE

I TALK PROPERLY WITH THIS YOU REPLY

ALRIGHT!

YOU ARE HUMAN! YOU HAVE FEELING!

YOU DIDN'T EVEN THINK WHAT I FEEL

REMEMBER WHAT YOU SAY!

WHAT YOU PROMISE!

BUT WHERE? I NEVER RECEIVE ANY OF IT!

THEN YOU KEEP ON SAYING I NOT KEEPING MY PROMISE

WHERE YOURS!!

JUST THAT I SO STUPID BELIEVE YOU AGAIN AND AGAIN

EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT THEN!

HAPPY?!!

the one who never keep your promise!

the one who didn't look at mirror before look at others!

the one who keep on say i toying with him but he the one toying me!

the one who never bother others feeling but want me to care his!

IS JUST TOO MUCH!!

again

you did it

how do expect me to trust you

look like both of you the same

WHAT THE!!!!

YOU REALLY KNOW HOW TO FOOL ME WELL

WHAT I GREAT ACTRESS YOU ARE

WANT ME TO TELL YOU

YOU PROMISE NOT TO TELL ANYONE

BUT LOOK

WHAT I GOT??!!

YOU THOUGHT YOU CAN HIDE EVERYTHING FROM ME

NEVER!!!

I HAVE EYES TO SEE!

I HAVE EARS TO LISTEN!

REALLY GREAT ACTRESS!!

I BELIEVE YOU

BUT LET ME DOWN

THIS IS NOT THE 1ST TIME YOU TREAT ME LIKE THIS

MOUTH SAY THAT WE ARE GOOD FRIEND GOOD SISTER

BUT LOOK

EVERY TIME YOU REALLY MAKE ME DISAPPOINTED

TELL ALL MY STUFF TO EVERYONE

GO AHEAD

YOU THOUGHT YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME

SORRY! YOU ARE SO WRONG

friends really shorten my life~ keep on asking me to believe them~ when i believe~ what have they done? make me disappointed again and again~ don't say i don't have mercy~ i did forgive you guys again and again~ but you guys keep on doing that~ how many time do you guys want me to forgive you guys~ if this thing go on don't say i am heartless~ i have enough of this friendship stuff~ everything want detail~ trust a person don't need to know much about him or her~ just a trust~ time pass by everything will reveal~ can you guys understand that~ sometime is not i don't believe you guys just that you guys really not suit become bad guy~ everything you guys done written at you guys face~ please~ give a living road for all of us~ and please to both of her~ if you really like that person please don't include me!!! i don't want to lose any friend~ go ahead with love stuff~ when that person is yours then will be yours~ don't influence that person mind~ saying me this and that~ thanks!!!!

有点疯的人, am i?

有点疯的人性格很奇怪,有时候超爱说话,有时候可以一天不说话的时候,会拼命的说话,不高兴的时候,一句话也不说；

有点疯的人不爱记仇,但谁对他好谁对他不好,他还是记得很清楚的；

有点疯的人把真实的自己藏于半夜的寂静和午夜明朗的笑声中；

有点疯的人最注重的就是安全感.希望被保护,却常常是一个人；

有点疯的人不容易爱上一个人，但一旦爱上便很难自拔。一旦受伤，总是被伤的很深。只有几个贴心朋友；

有点疯的人是个很爱撒娇的孩子、总是很依赖别人；

有点疯的人喜欢海,喜欢顾影自怜.喜欢自己舔伤口；

有点疯的人性格很古怪而又孤僻,他们会突然在大笑中沉默,感觉悲伤；

有点疯的人心里想什么从来不说.别人也猜不到；

有点疯的人嘴上说不在乎、心里却早已悲凉、心里的那把火早已熄灭；

有点疯的人选择了沉默、不在像以前那样挚热的去追求某样东西；

有点疯的人总是很爱回忆、回忆以前的点点滴滴、以前的大小事只是默默的想着；

有点疯的人天生敏锐，与生具备的第六感，对人的内心有超乎寻常的洞察力，但他会把这些东西放在心里；

有点疯的人可以把你的眼神、内心看得很清楚，但却不会告诉你，他用旁观的态度判定虚伪；

有点疯的人不懂甜言蜜语，不屑拍马屁；

有点疯的人本能的排斥虚伪和做作的人；

有点疯的人不会真的发火，就算生气，也很快忘记！

有点疯的人只对真正懂他的人，展示他的创造性，他的情绪他变得冷淡就证明他开始对你重新审视，当他越是沉默，就代表他越是生气；

有点疯的人可能看起来很凶，其实内心是最柔软的；

有点疯的人看起来很冷淡，但那只是保护自己的方法；

有点疯的人很重视友情，但被伤害后绝对不再友善；

有点疯的人很容易被感动，但感动中又保有理智；

有点疯的人可能看起来很坚强，其实是最脆弱的；

有点疯的人可能很爱哭，但他的哭并不代表认输；

有点疯的人可能看起来很笨，其实大智若愚；

有点疯的人可能做事很毛躁，但内心很细心；

有点疯的人天生敏感和细腻，却会用心鉴定；

有点疯的人懦弱，受了伤之后，只知道躲在无人的地方独自哭泣；

有点疯的人虚伪，明明已经心痛到无法呼吸，还要在最爱的他面前假装坚强；不轻易让任何人走进他自己独自的世界；

有点疯的人的笑容，无论开心或者悲伤，他都是一脸笑容，笑容，是他们伪装自己最好的武器；

有点疯的人的眼泪，从不轻易让人看见，他的泪，从来只有她知道，

只是，谁又知道，在有点脑残的人笑脸背后，埋藏的是深深的悲伤，笑的越开心，伤的越深；

有点疯的人的退缩，有点脑残的人，永远不会轻易说爱或者喜欢，除非真的喜欢到了极点，否则，要他们表白几乎不可能，但是，一旦表白，他们就是不遗余力的付出，即使知道这样做换来的结果可能是深深的伤害…

有点疯的人，永远只可能做同一件事两次，表白也一样，同一个人，只可能听到他向你最深的表白两次，两次之后，就是绝对的安静了…即使仍然深爱着，他也没有勇气再说第三遍我爱你…他的退缩，不能重复一件事第三次；

有点疯的人愚蠢，不懂的怎么挽回深爱的人的心，只能自己心中默默的祝福和祈祷。

受了伤的有点疯的人，只会在角落独自忍受锥心的痛。

有点疯的人的：体贴第一名，多愁善感第一名.

ps: everyone say this article suit me~ there are a lot of secret i keep within myself~ is that true?

i got a buddy

i got a buddy

he say talking to me is good

but this few month

he got another friend

isolated me

he say he is busy study

but yet still

he say he understand me

but this few month

he didnt even care what happen to me

didnt text me everyday as usually do

one text also i didnt receive

meet up just ask

what happen? what happen?

after apart

ignore me

how do expect me to tell him what happen

he say i think too much too emotional

but do he know what is life

life is not easy as he think

he say once a good friend will always good

but why do i feel cold

why i sudden he doesnt friend with me anymore

he say he believe me

but why everything i say seem a lie

anything want me tell him

but he didnt even tell me anything

want me to believe friend? want me share everything?

how do you want me to trust you?

i didnt keep promise? who the one who forget those promise?

i too secretive?

make me depend on you then throw me away?

treat you like a toy? who treat who as toy now?

when i need you where have you been?

i am noisy?

ps: i didnt like you!

additional: stop complaining how bad others treat you,

but start treating others with your true heart is what makes you improve yourself :)

'friends always come and go, and i believe every friendship will decline when they had reached their climax'

this what i got from my friend

but i hope me and this buddy can maintain our friendship till the end like last time do

to him: both of us still buddy as last time do right? after exam pass even before exam right?

do give me an answer~