Liar~

you say you are my friend
but you doesn't act like one
you say you won't leave me alone
but you left me without a word
you say you will be right here when i needed
but you never appear before
you say you understand me
but you never know what i feel
everything you say is just a lie
you never prove you care
you never prove you trust
you just the same liar like everyone do
and so do i
so~
stop acting you are innocent
all of us is a liar
just admit it
stop acting you are good
excuses me~
that part is not for you
stop acting you care
cause you never understand what people feel
STOP IT!
stop copying my dialogue
and stop saying i am a liar in front of my "FRIENDS"
as if i care
STOP IT!
i can live alone, study alone, play alone
so~
happy with that
stop it! and stay away from me~
LIAR!!

stranger~

What happen to my friendship??
seem like stranger when i meet them~
the distance between all of us much more far~
is this what i want?
from the start i the one who keep on stay away~
shouldn't i be happy or glad?
but
why i seem no mood, my heart pain bleeding~
why i mad, sad when they still go on without me?
shouldn't i happy?
cause they still go on without me~
this is a happy ending isn't it?
everyone still go on~
but
why i feel lonely and hated myself so much?
should i keep my feeling?
should i??
this just a temporary feeling right?
just temporary~
after a while
i will be alright~
i will be good as usual~
yes i will~
i think~~

我怎么了~

我怎么了
把你发给我的信息留起来
偶尔把它看看
自己突然笑起来
觉的自己好傻好幸福
真的好幸福
我怎么了
下雨时心情特别复杂
好想哭
真的好想哭
突然想起你离开的哪一天
我怎么了
突然好想发信息给你
问你
最近过的好吗？
有没有在想念我？
但
当我把信息写完了
却没有勇气按发送
我怕你把我从你回忆消除掉
我怎么了
走着走着
又到我们曾经去的地方
一直重播着我们的回忆
重播着我们的歌
我怎么了
我的笑
你的笑
在也不会么美好
我到底怎么了！

Boundaries~

everything has change
my smile
your smile
there is boundaries between us
maybe both of us shouldn't meet
it will be better for us
there is too much road to choose
maybe this time we are wrong about our choice
i will keep those boundaries
i will make a another road
it will be better for us

想念你

很累

真的很累

我要如何你才肯和我说话

那种感觉

无法形容

没有你陪我

感觉我失去了方向

我明白

这一切都是我不对

对不起

我想念你的陪伴

我想念你的依靠

我想念你的笑声

我想念你的信息

我想念你的安慰

我想念你

真的很想念你～

i give up~

I THOUGHT

i thought u understand

i thought i could believe u

i thought i could tell u everything

i thought u are the different

but

I WRONG

i wrong that u will care about me

i wrong that u would bother what is happen to me

i wrong that u treat me as true friend

I GIVE UP

i give up everything before i couldn't let go

i give up the thinking of i could have a true friend

i give up for the very last time

I WILL

i will hidden every single pain

i will just cry in the middle of the night

i will talk to my diary

i will reserve my belonging

i will just stay within myself

i will wear that unchangeable mask in front of u

i will smile

don't worry

i still use to be alone

in those empty house

i really use to it~

confusing~

life is really not what i expected
everything that happen around me
seem like a dream
sometime really wish it was a dream
but the truth wont change
my heartbeat is getting weaker
who can tell me what should i do
whenever i try to correct all the thing i done
it never success
maybe i should give up
but there a brunch of promise will tear off
i still have a lot of responsibility
no matter
as a daughter
a sister
a friend
confusing~~