i give up~

I THOUGHT

i thought u understand

i thought i could believe u

i thought i could tell u everything

i thought u are the different

but

I WRONG

i wrong that u will care about me

i wrong that u would bother what is happen to me

i wrong that u treat me as true friend

I GIVE UP

i give up everything before i couldn't let go

i give up the thinking of i could have a true friend

i give up for the very last time

I WILL

i will hidden every single pain

i will just cry in the middle of the night

i will talk to my diary

i will reserve my belonging

i will just stay within myself

i will wear that unchangeable mask in front of u

i will smile

don't worry

i still use to be alone

in those empty house

i really use to it~

confusing~

life is really not what i expected
everything that happen around me
seem like a dream
sometime really wish it was a dream
but the truth wont change
my heartbeat is getting weaker
who can tell me what should i do
whenever i try to correct all the thing i done
it never success
maybe i should give up
but there a brunch of promise will tear off
i still have a lot of responsibility
no matter
as a daughter
a sister
a friend
confusing~~

decision~

stupid
now i realise i just too stupid
who bother what i think
who care when i down
the thing i expected is just too much for me
i shouldn't give up the 1st decision
now i cant returning back
letting go is the best way
but i cant
stupid~~
i really cant let it go
i will cry
but who bother
seem like anyone bother before~

take care my friend~

as day pass by

one by one silently walk away from my life

make my tear flowing down silently

but i wont let anyone know

i have to be strong

missing those crazy day

fooling around

although i just a little tiny part of your life

but i really grateful to know u

missing your voice

missing chit chat with u

just hope u will happy always

beside your family

missing you

take care~~

what would you do?

when someone sudden treat you so cold
what would you do?
when situation becoming worst
what would you do?
when every single dream just tear off
what would you do?
when the secret you hidden is explore
what would you do?
when someone tell you they hate you
what would you do?
when the medical report said you would die soon
what would you do?
when every single stuff around you is not belong to you
what would you do?
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME??
WHAT SHOULD I DO??

dream world~

this few day
i don't know how should describe
i lose my few pieces of puzzle
they seem like playing hide and seek with me
they doesn't tell me where do they hide
another piece of puzzle
that missing all of the while
had jump out
company me dreaming
listening to my complaint
what happen to the world??
upside down??
i don't know i should be happy or sad
i scare i just dreaming
hoping this dream won't fade out~

mask~

SMILE
to me just a mask on my face
CRY
i will only hidden it within myself

who will understand the pain~