Wednesday, September 15, 2010

心动~


我依然记得我们见面的第一天,你穿着一身朋友们所谓的ah beng,在教授面前调皮的聊天。而我就是那个新来的学妹,悄悄的告诉旁边认识不久的同学。S:"哪个学长好咯说哦~"最难为情莫过于,让另一位学长逮个正,还直接走到我旁边告诉我,你可是他们帮的loud speaker呢~

一次的机缘巧合,我们认识了。原来私底下的你比我还要好玩,我也是很调皮,所以很快成为好朋友。学校的每一个角落都遗留我们的笑声和踪影。身边的朋友把我们凑成一对,你也从来没有否认过我们的关系。

朋友叫我向你告白,也许我们就差那么一步,就可以成为真正的情侣。我喜欢当时的相处方式,一起诳街看电影。每当我不开心,你来逗我开心。你心情不好是,我会陪在你身边。也许表白可以让关系更近一步,但我害怕被拒绝,情愿保持现状。

有一天,你突然告诉我,你喜欢她。我也慢慢和你保持距离。那一刻我才知道,原来你一直都把我当小妹妹般照顾。

你知道吗?你好残忍。你让我心动了,却也让我心死。从此,我不再接你的电话,不回你的信息,因为我怕收不回对你的感情。我们最爱的地方和食物,我戒掉了。我甚至不敢看你的照片,有关你的消息都不想听。

曾经听过一句话:"人在剥洋葱的过程会不断地流泪,但要剥到最后才知道原来洋葱是没有心的。"没有剥开前,我会期待奇迹出现。难道,你是无心让我心动吗?

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Liar~


you say you are my friend
but you doesn't act like one
you say you won't leave me alone
but you left me without a word
you say you will be right here when i needed
but you never appear before
you say you understand me
but you never know what i feel
everything you say is just a lie
you never prove you care
you never prove you trust
you just the same liar like everyone do
and so do i
so~
stop acting you are innocent
all of us is a liar
just admit it
stop acting you are good
excuses me~
that part is not for you
stop acting you care
cause you never understand what people feel
STOP IT!
stop copying my dialogue
and stop saying i am a liar in front of my "FRIENDS"
as if i care
STOP IT!
i can live alone, study alone, play alone
so~
happy with that
stop it! and stay away from me~
LIAR!!

stranger~


What happen to my friendship??
seem like stranger when i meet them~
the distance between all of us much more far~
is this what i want?
from the start i the one who keep on stay away~
shouldn't i be happy or glad?
but
why i seem no mood, my heart pain bleeding~
why i mad, sad when they still go on without me?
shouldn't i happy?
cause they still go on without me~
this is a happy ending isn't it?
everyone still go on~
but
why i feel lonely and hated myself so much?
should i keep my feeling?
should i??
this just a temporary feeling right?
just temporary~
after a while
i will be alright~
i will be good as usual~
yes i will~
i think~~

Monday, August 9, 2010

我怎么了~

我怎么了
把你发给我的信息留起来
偶尔把它看看
自己突然笑起来
觉的自己好傻好幸福
真的好幸福
我怎么了
下雨时心情特别复杂
好想哭
真的好想哭
突然想起你离开的哪一天
我怎么了
突然好想发信息给你
问你
最近过的好吗?
有没有在想念我?

当我把信息写完了
却没有勇气按发送
我怕你把我从你回忆消除掉
我怎么了
走着走着
又到我们曾经去的地方
一直重播着我们的回忆
重播着我们的歌
我怎么了
我的笑
你的笑
在也不会么美好
我到底怎么了!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Boundaries~

everything has change
my smile
your smile
there is boundaries between us
maybe both of us shouldn't meet
it will be better for us
there is too much road to choose
maybe this time we are wrong about our choice
i will keep those boundaries
i will make a another road
it will be better for us

Saturday, June 19, 2010

想念你

很累
真的很累
我要如何你才肯和我说话
那种感觉
无法形容
没有你陪我
感觉我失去了方向
我明白
这一切都是我不对
对不起
我想念你的陪伴
我想念你的依靠
我想念你的笑声
我想念你的信息
我想念你的安慰
我想念你
真的很想念你~

Saturday, May 1, 2010

i give up~


I THOUGHT
i thought u understand
i thought i could believe u
i thought i could tell u everything
i thought u are the different
but
I WRONG
i wrong that u will care about me
i wrong that u would bother what is happen to me
i wrong that u treat me as true friend
I GIVE UP
i give up everything before i couldn't let go
i give up the thinking of i could have a true friend
i give up for the very last time
I WILL
i will hidden every single pain
i will just cry in the middle of the night
i will talk to my diary
i will reserve my belonging
i will just stay within myself
i will wear that unchangeable mask in front of u
i will smile
don't worry
i still use to be alone
in those empty house
i really use to it~