trust~

Every time i'm texting or calling my friends i will ask something suspiciously to them or even asked for dozen of time. Without any doubt anyone who heard it or saw it will say "Don't you believe your own friend?". Honestly, I don't. Why should i? Tell me one reason to blindly trusting anyone. And my attitude is nothing to do with my friends. Just look at all those who have been suffered from being cheated upon. What do they say? They will say thing like this: "i can't believe they would do this to me. I believe them so much". But to me is totally silly people put so much heart to a little word. They would say "They would never hurt me. I just know. I trusted them". And i think. So what if you don't? Is it a bad thing? Is that supposed to be insult on their character? Is they supposed to be angry? There totally nothing to be angry about what. Everyone need to safeguard their self-interests. You say you trust someone. To what extent do you do that? Do you give them your bank password? Properly not. Nobody trust anyone that much, unless they are completely naive. As for me, I trusted that my friend will never choose dark heart over pure heart. Because they hates dark heart and these thing will never change. I will to put RM1,000 to bet on it but properly not my whole fortune. I trusted not 100% but maybe 95%. Trust is such a funny thing. People always say it needs to be earned, it needs to be built. After some time of interacting with something, certain thing can be depended on. Like i trust my doctor will heal me in any situation it is and he never failed to do it in this few years. I trusted my dairy milk will taste the same as it has always tasted. Over the period, i have been friend with them, outing together, sleep in the same room, chit chat whole night long, doing something totally crime. Yet i don't trust them would never cheat on me. Why? First: People change. Today they madly in love with you. Tomorrow he is bored. The next day he bored and drunk. The day after that he bored, drunk, horny and had a fight with you.Who know? The only things you can depend on is. People change with time. Even if their personalities remain identical, their feeling to you might change. Second: Circumstances change. Sure, in this period he never found a friend that can replaced me. Tomorrow. Who knows? If they meets and gets to know 1.000,000 people, there has got to be one who is better than me, no matter how much he cares me. Right? Third: Consequences is bigger. And this is the best reason not to totally trust your friends will not stray. CONSEQUENCES. It is easy to trust if consequences are small. I pay RM4 for my usual laksa stall because i trust it will be yummy as always. Not yummy no big deal, i'd buy from other stall. Net loss RM4 and some time. But if i believe my friends will never stray, when they does, i gonna damnly broken. You shaking your head, thinking "You dumb head, even if you don't trust, either way you're broken, if it happens it happens". You are wrong. Sure, i'd still be heartbroken. But wait. Prevention is better then cure. When you suspicious, won't it just piss then off? But if they has nothing to hide, they would not get angry. Cheating is just like a cancer, you want to win it, you've got find it out early. Some of you might be saying "why work so hard to prevent that seems unavoidable? If they cheats, they wont be worth it anyway. Stupid! All human cheat if there no consequences. I sincerely believe that. Some don't because they don't wanna hurt us. Some because they scare losing us. Some because social ramifications, anything. Most commonly of all, human cheat because they make mistake, thinking they wont be caught. And when you blindly trust, that's when they are the most certain they will never get caught. I'm sure a lot of you don't agree with my school thought, saying "You must be all sad, panariod and worrisome all the time. That's not how life is suppose to be like. I pity your friends." Don't worry. Me and my friends having our happy moment together. Obviously i *do* trust them because they are good with principles. But just not enough to fully believe they will never cheat and not do my best to try to prevent it from happening. If one day comes and they stray, i'd say "Oh well at least i tired my best. And at least i not duped for ages." What do you think? Do you trust fully your friend? Those of you got cheated on, did you trust them? Do you still trust them now?