thinking~

this few day

i really think a lot

think bout him

think another him

think bout her

think bout study

think bout should i work to save money

think bout should i continue stay here

think bout friends

think bout family

hmm

there really bunches decision need to make

next year

should i consider hostel

as all my friend seem like not really sure bout stay at condominium

at 1st they told me this but cant give me a sure answer?

i really need it~

as i have to save my expenses for my own

i dont really want to expect to take a cents from my family

i want totally independent

i will work and half study

but i should save from now

although my saving is enough but still money from my parent

i dont want to touch it if can

just for urgent case

oh dear~

anyone out there have suggestion?

i have a buddy to talk

but i scare he busy

he seem like dont really want talk with me

so just act normal

maybe time will heal everything

sometime texting with him also a bit phobia

scare he did reply me with a annoying word

i cant afford to lose anyone

i need friend

sometime i really wanted to texting him

but i stop myself

i scare he will say me really annoying

sometime i moody he didnt text me as last time do even he knew it

he didnt ask me why even i just beside him

i miss his caring

maybe he will only texting with her as i just a friend only

sometime i really envy her

envy her has friend company her everyday

has a caring family

i didnt mention i dont have a caring family

yes i do have a caring family

but they just no time for me

they provide me everything

but just no time

i never blame them

i knew they are busy

i just can pray everything will go smoothly for them

i never ask for anything much

i just hope everyone (family and friends and specially my cute buddy)

just hope they everyday will happy

please stay healthy

buddy~ buddy~

where have you been?

i need you here~