am i use to it?

back to pass again~
everything gone to the same process over and over
should i say i use to it?
but every time it happen
is keep on hurting me deeper

BLANK~

chinese new year is near

but to me

still the same

plus is almost the end of january

what have i done?

nothing~

blank life

my friends all busy with preparation

but me

too free till don't know what to do

i miss everyone around although i just meet them

i really don't know what should i do with my life

can anyone lead me tell me

yesterday my friend ask me

what am i good at?

again blank answer

just like my aunt asked me

what is my dream?

BLANK

why am i study ACCA?

BLANK

what i gotta do next?

I REALLY DON'T KNOW!

my sisters my brothers

all have their dream

but me

NOTHING

what a life i have?

sometime i really tired

can i end up here

Can I?

weird~

this few days really weird

my feeling really down

my tear flowing down suddenly

i love to stand middle of the rain

i not afraid of lighting and storm that i usually do

not having any food for whole day without feeling hungry

madding everyone around me without reason

dancing around like insane

texting with someone i really hate the most

what on the earth have happen~

i needed someone to talk to

but who?

weird

everyone seem busy

or avoiding?

what am i thinking about?

keep on feeling this way

i needed you where are you?

weird

很想念～

心真的很烦
每当朋友们发冬至的祝福给我
我又过普通的一天
没有汤圆的冬至
是冬至吗？
我真的想和别人一样～
但很难吧～
365天是一样
家人都忙
不然就不在
忙了
忘了
好想念一家人团圆
真的很想念～

meaning of family and friend~

What is the meaning of family?
can someone answer me
please respect others
don't think you are highly educated
then you can simply treat people that way
so what
my family don't need you guys
you guys just way way too far
do you know you hurt people indirectly
do you think we needed you guys
sorry
i can say that we don't need you
we can live peacefully without you guys
really shorten my life only
please mind in heart
in this world there is nothing more important then family
if that you understand
but i think we are not family right??

what is the meaning of friend?
friend is not an item
that you can simply throw it away when you don't need it
or simply just make it yours when you need it
what do you think i am?
toy?
sorry, i am a human with feeling
please don't make trust you and broke my trust
i really really faith up with this friendship thing
you guy is the one who tell me
friend wont left you
when you needed them
they will be here
don't keep too many thing within myself
what the~
where is those promises
now i understand
i know what i gotta do
thanks for the "CARE"

end up my trust~

at last
i have the same situation again
it was started
when i started to believe someone
really make me so disappointed
where have you been when i needed you
you really a good good actor
give you a big applause
you just way way too far
thanks for those care
i appreciate it
but
now i realise
i just too native to believe you
that will end up my trust on you

can't forgive~

at last

i still cant forgive them

yesterday should a nice memories for me

but seem like

it doesn't mean anything

every single thing i do

it doesnt make sense

i feel it was very wrong

when other busy with their thing

how could they possible remember what is your feeling

they indirectly way of doing

make me damnly mad and heart broken

what kind of friends are you guy are

i know i not prefect

but

at least i know how to respect others

please stop acting you are right

you really break others hearts and it really hurt

you really make me hate you deeply and make myself a sinner

what in earth are happening

do you know the truth?

if you dont know please dont act as if you are know something

don simply judge

i hate it

when i keep on let it be as if i was wrong

STOP IT!!

you will get your pushisment

you make me dont forgive you~